and NOVEMBER 2014 (29 weeks Prego)
People say that the second pregnancy goes by faster than the first but for some reason that has not been the case with me. I think it might be due to the fact that I was working full-time the first time. Even though I was on bed rest for six weeks it didn't seem to go by that slow. This time I have had so much going on but also a lot not going on. We found out I was pregnant, then we moved to California and ever since I've been here I feel like time has stood still! I'm not allowed to really work and exercise (not even walk up a hill). So basically I just take care of my energy-filled toddler Chase everyday and try to keep my house clean.
I have days lately where I am depressed and in a funk for seriously no reason at all. I live at the beach in probably one of the coolest cities ever with awesome weather year-round. The only reason I can see why I get in these moods is my lack of exercise (and maybe my high dose injection of Progesterone I receive weekly in my bum).
For me exercise is my stress reliever. I also did it so I could kind of eat what I want on occasion. Pre-pregnancy I would workout 4-5 days a week. Whether it was Xtend Barre Classes in Utah, going on a hike/walk or doing at home DVDs (jillian michaels/tracy anderson). I was not super skinny or toned by any means but I just FELT BETTER. I loved the way exercise made me feel. I had more energy, I was happier and I overall felt better about my body. Exercise is definitely the one thing I am missing right now in my life.
Which leads me to body image. I think most of us girls struggle with this. I have gained more weight this time around than with Chase. The difference this time is that I literally can not do anything about it except try to eat healthy. And let's face it, who has the willpower to do that when you are pregnant!?!?! I tried a couple weeks ago and I actually did cut out refined carbs/sugar for a whole six days! Then I thought what is the point of this? I gain weight no matter what.
Most pregnant women can walk or do yoga to keep their bodies somewhat toned. I am not supposed to do anything but relax. I know that may sound really appealing but it is also hard to watch my muscles all fade away and turn to cellulite. The only thing I have found that has helped me is to PRAY. and remember what a miracle pregnancy is.
I do this daily. I pray at night and almost every morning. I thank Heavenly Father for the chance I have to have another baby. For the opportunity to be a Mother. I thank him for a healthy growing baby inside of me. I think of all the things that could be going wrong and remember that things are really not as bad as they seem.
I try to remember that my body is a vessel. I have been given the responsibility to grow this little baby. With the day to day chaos I tend to forget this. But then I feel this little baby boy kick and I remember how cool it is to grow a tiny human inside of me! This is for sure the BEST thing about being pregnant.
I am not perfect though. And I will admit that I probably find myself more often than not comparing my "normal" pregnant body to those skinny faces, arms and legs of those freak pregnant girls that only get a bump. I have to tell myself that is not realistic for me. Everyone is different. I remind myself of how blessed I am to even be able to HAVE A BABY! Chase is the greatest blessing I have ever received and I can't believe that I get to do it again.
So here's to having healthy babies and gaining healthy pregnancy weight!
I already have a post-pregancy workout regimen planned for February :) Until then you will probably find me eating donuts and drinking chocolate milk.