Casey, Ashley, Chase & Jimmy

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Thoughts on Motherhood

So lately Casey and I have been talking about baby #2. Of course Casey says he is ready (well he isn't the one who is still breastfeeding and has to be pregnant for almost a year…again). I keep going back and forth if I want to have them super close together or maybe a couple years apart. Plus we don't know how long it will take for me to get pregnant. With Chase it took 1.5 years! So many things to consider!

This may sound selfish, but I am also just looking forward to having my body back to myself once I stop breastfeeding. I heard that you have so much more energy! I still need to lose a few pounds to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight as well. But ever since breastfeeding I can't limit my calories or I won't make enough milk! And I would really like to taste that freedom of not having a baby dependent on my body even if just for a few months. Chase is still breastfeeding and going strong! I'm going to start weaning him so I can completely stop when he turns one (which is in a little over a month). 

I feel like it will be hard with baby #2 no matter how close or far apart they are. I love being a mom and I know that is the most important thing we can do while here on earth. I was just thinking how crazy it is when you go from 0 to 1 baby. The thoughts that enter your mind when you first see your baby and how much love you have for them. Seriously I can't even describe what that's like. You think you have life figured out and that you are so happy and then you have a baby and everything changes. For me I just realized that this is what life is all about. It's not about me. It's about raising children, watching them grow, and teaching them everything you know. It's true, that you really do feel what it means to "have joy in your posterity". So here is to having more babies! Not sure when, but hopefully soon :)

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  1. oh this is exciting!! Spencer and I have been talking about this as well... even though Charley is only 6 months. We know we want them pretty close together and we started later than most people (in the LDS world). I needed this post though because I have had the same thoughts... it would be nice to have at least a few months of no breastfeeding hormones, milk squirting out of me and being able to run when I want without having to think about feeding/pumping.. but that is just me being selfish.

    1. No you are not being selfish! I think our bodies deserve a little break! I'm worried that once I taste that freedom during that break that it might be even harder to imagine being pregnant again ahhhh.

  2. um, you're NOT being selfish. not one bit. you'll do whatever feels right for your family. :) although i am looking forward to pictures of TWO great big smiley faces like in the picture at the top of this post!

  3. Yahh for more babies! But I totally get what you mean with getting your body back.... Its hard work! Either way it's going to be the right thing!

  4. I enjoyed exactly 4 months of my own bod between stopping breastfeeding and getting pregnant with #2. It was lovely and I often wish I was at that point again. 2nd pregnancy was sooner than anticipated, but it was clear messages that it was TIME. You'll know when its time. (took us about 1 yr to get pregnant round one, and no time at ALL for #2) It is a very large physical sacrifice to have children. It's hard!